I Used To (parts V - VII) (poem)

V

I still don't. And I never will.
You know who you are --
The hypocrites and the
Incoherent imbeciles.

Rather than do anything other than
Pique your shallow interests
And satiate your need
To know what's going on

I'll load the gun for you.
Then we'll see if you
Know how to pull the trigger.
                                                I doubt you will.

VI

I already explained that
I was once too shy to function.
The same reason for that
Explains my attitude now.

I take two seconds to think,
Two seconds to breathe --
I pause when you speak
And begin when you leave.

I take it all in
Instead of wasting my time --
I speak only when
I have something to say.

Weight -- it has more meanings
Than you might assume.
My words ring with it
Because they're considered.

You waste breath, life and
Opportunities.
                        I take all three.

Succinctly put, I seize the second:
I'm never third and I'm
Often first.

VII

So how is that a loaded gun?
All you have to do is read
Between the lines. But I will
Be blunt about one thing:
I cared what people thought of me
Because I assumed all people
Were the same.
I was wrong.

Most people don't think much
At all. So if I don't pause
The next time you
Prematurely ejaculate some nonsense
About my character, it's
Because:
              though you're entitled to your
Naive ruminations about me,
I value mine more than I can
Express.